I am so done with boys! Seriously this time.
I know I just blogged about this guy that I have fallen head over heels for...
Well, I did a little research and found out that, yes, he is visiting his ex-girlfriend in Europe! And she might think that they are still together... fucking a!
Of course this did not stop him from a) sleeping in my bed, b) telling me that i am amazing, beautiful, and all that bullshit, or c) inviting me to come out to visit him in Colorado and allowing me to buy a plane ticket.
What the fuck!
So, I am done with them for a loooooooong time. It all ends in me getting my fucking heart broken. Please excuse my profanity, but finding that stuff out tonight was crushing. At least it allows me to start the new year off with a fresh, clean plate!
During the last year, my life changed dramatically. I got my feet back on the ground and am headed in a great direction professionally and financially. However, my personal life leaves much to be desired. So, in 2008, I hope to not only keep things going the way they are in my professional/financial life, but I also hope that my personal life changes dramatically for the better.
I wish that I could follow the wise words of Marilyn Monroe when it comes to men:
"A wise girl kisses but does not love, listens but does not believe, and leaves before she is left."
Sunday, December 30, 2007
10 Things Every Woman Needs to Get Rid of Right Now
- Fear of flaunting - in bed, at the office, on the dance floor. Be proud of what you've got!
- Any really sincere desire to sleep with a celebrity.
- A job that drains your time, energy and joie de vivre in exchange for - what, exactly?
- Your "skinny" clothes that only firt after the stomach flu.
- Cigarettes.
- Rage. It may (very occasionally) be justified, but it's rarely worth being known as "that crazy lady in 2B."
- Any guy who doesn't keep his word.
- That friend who always makes you feel worse about yourself instead of better.
- The agony you relive when you think of that really embarassing thing you did ... a year ago.
- Your sex tape!
From the January 2008 Glamour.
In case you have yet to notice...
I love to find lyrics and quotations that are fitting to my life, mood, feelings, or dreams. Whether it be a song, a poem, a quip from a novel, a news story, or a simple quote, there is something out there that perfectly sums up my situation.
Thus, if I just randomly insert lyrics to a song, a line from a book, or a quote, there is a reason. It sheds light on my life. Might give you a new insight on my feelings, emotions, and outlook.
Happy Sunday!
Thus, if I just randomly insert lyrics to a song, a line from a book, or a quote, there is a reason. It sheds light on my life. Might give you a new insight on my feelings, emotions, and outlook.
Happy Sunday!
Saturday, December 29, 2007
"Dreams" by Boyz II Men
Here I am again, wondering if you're okay
Can't stop this troubled heart
Cause we're apart, miles away
Phone pressed up to my ear
Wish you were here, holding me
A face to go with your sweet voice
Will bring me joy, totally
I know I can't be there
But baby it's alright
I'll be waiting for you, tonight
I pray that you'll be there
When I close my eyes
Meet me in my dreams, tonight
One thing that never changes
No matter whatI can't wait to see you
Can't wait to feel you
And there's a place of our own, where we can go
Nobody knows
I close my eyes real tight
And make love to you all night
I know I can't be there
Baby it's alright
I'll be waiting for you, tonight
I pray that you'll be there
When I close my eyes
Meet me in my dreams, tonight
I wish I may, I wish you might
Find some time when you sleep tonight
To think of me and I'll appear before your eyes
It's my paradise, your world
You are my heart, my life, my girl
Oh, can't wait to go to sleep
Cause there's a possibility, you'll meet me
Ohh, oh oh oh oh
Ohh yeah, oh yeah
I know...
I know I can't be there
Baby it's alright
I'll be waiting for you, tonight
I pray that you'll be there
When I close my eyes
Meet me in my dreams, tonight
I know I can't be there
Baby it's alright
I'll be waiting for you, tonight
I pray that you'll be there
When I close my eyes
Meet me in my dreams, tonight
Two Things
- Did I mention that I am going to Texas and Colorado in February? I am going to Austin, TX, to visit my best friend from High School, Sara Kelly, and one of my best friends from Kenyon, Andrea Scott. I will be visiting the law school at Colorado University and the boy from the previous posts. I can't wait for the trip! I will be flying into Austin on 2/14 and leaving for Denver on 2/20. I believe that I fly back to Ohio on 2/25. A nice long vacation for me to look forward. Hopefully reward for doing well on LSAT round #2.
- I also started a new blog. The new blog is called "Fifteen in 45." It is dedicated to my diet goal/new year's resolution of dropping fifteen pounds in the first fourty-five days of 2008. You can check it out at www.fifteenin45.blogspot.com
Cosmo Horoscope of the Day
The stars urge you to forget that you're a conservative girl and grab a personal (cute guy alert!) or career (dream job?) opportunity that might suddenly appear today, courtesy of surprising Uranus.
It has been a few weeks...
SORRY!! I haven't forgotten about this blog, but I just have had too much going on to write. Depressing, I know.
I would love to give you a brief synopsis of the past few weeks, but due to time contsraints (on your part) I will just let you know about where I am at today.
First, I am studying for the LSAT's again. I got my scores back from the first test. I did well, but I know that I can do better. Most of my apps are due by March 15th and the LSAT is Feb. 2nd. I am spending the entirity of the month of January studying. Jealous, aren't you?
Also, starting Sunday December 30th, I am starting a serious diet. My goal is to lose 15 pounds in 45 days. I know that might sound absurd, but I know that I can do it. First, I will save money. Second, I am going to Texas and Colorado in February to see some old friends and I want to look good...duh :)
Meredith and I had our annual Tacky Holiday Sweater Party last weekend, and needless to say, no one was disappointed. People actually made the two hour trek down to Chillicothe for the party. I was shocked. The punch was good, the outfits were ridiculous, and the music was perfect. Although there are a few moments that I don't remember perfectly, I had a wonderful time. Friends from high school, college, and from Chillicothe were in attendance. It was nice to have every period of my life represented!
This guy (to remain nameless), who I have been friends with since college and currently lives 20 hours away, came to the party. I am completely head over heels infatuated with the kid; even though my roommate says that he looks like a surfer dude and despite the fact that Pete has pointed out that he constantly flicks his hair. We had a great time the night of the party and then the following night we went to the zoo and looked at the lights. I wish that I would have been feeling better to enjoy it more, but I just enjoyed spending time and just talking with him (the kissing wasn't that bad either ;)). Unfortunately his free time was sparse, he is now in Europe. Yep, Europe. I didn't dig for details on the trip because I am assuming that it is to visit his ex-girlfriend (hopefully not his current girlfriend). I hate this. Hopefully, I am assuming wrong. But girls have a sixth sense and just get that feeling. Anyways, I just hate the fact that I fall for people whom I shouldn't. He has been so sweet, nice, etc. so far that I just know it is going to end not the way that I would want it too!
Basically he has been the one guy friend of mine who has kept in touch with me since college. And I will emphasize the fact that he has kept in touch with me. I wasn't always as receptive as I am now. I used to just see him as a friend... until last year when he kissed me before he left to go back to CO. For me, I don't relish in the fact that he kissed me. Instead, I think about how he has to have done this with all of these other girls and how many other girls does he constantly text, etc. I hate the fact that I am a complete pessimist when it comes to boys. Completely and utterly hate it. And what makes it worse, is that he has always been the one guy who has been there for me through every guy telling me that they weren't good enough, that i didn't deserve them. I just wish that I could trust a guy again. I have learned through the past year to love again, now I just want to trust again.
Back to the fact that he has been the only guy friend to really reach out to me since college to be my friend... I guess, I just keep comparing this in my mind to my sister and Jay. How Jay was the only person to really keep in touch with her when she moved out to Montana and when she came back, he was right there for her. I just wish my guy would move back to Ohio and then we could take off where Chrissie and Jay did... i.e. on the way to something more permanent. Ha ha. Not going to happen. But, I can wish!
And I know that I am just rattling on and on without much of a point thus far. My point is that I like a guy that doesn't live anywhere close to me, I don't trust men of any shape, size or color, I want to find happiness, and I am sad.
That is right, I am sad. I hate being sad and depressed. This guy and I would talk everyday and constantly be texting each other. I know that sounds ridiculous for two twenty-somethings to be constantly texting, but it puts a smile across my face and happy thoughts in my mind. And I know it does the same thing for him, because he told me so! And he left for Europe yesterday. I know that it has only been one day, but I just miss hearing from him and I can't help but wonder who he is traveling with or whom he is visiting. And that of course makes me sick... makes me sick to think that he probably really isn't mine or ever going to be mine.
I don't like to ramble on about guys, but this is the only place that I feel that I can really talk about it. I am scared to tell my family things, or tell them everything in that they have already blamed me for losing John awhile back (which was not my fault at all!). I also can't confide in my roommate really. She doesn't really like him, granted she does not know him at all. But, why make fun of someone that you know your roommate likes when you yourself really don't know him at all? Yeah, I thought so.
So, please just wish me well and if you have any ideas on how I can distract myself these next two weeks... let me know!
I am thinking about having someone screen all future guys for me. Maybe hang a sign outside my door that says "Only serious inquiries permitted".
I really just don't want to be lonely for the rest of my life.
I would love to give you a brief synopsis of the past few weeks, but due to time contsraints (on your part) I will just let you know about where I am at today.
First, I am studying for the LSAT's again. I got my scores back from the first test. I did well, but I know that I can do better. Most of my apps are due by March 15th and the LSAT is Feb. 2nd. I am spending the entirity of the month of January studying. Jealous, aren't you?
Also, starting Sunday December 30th, I am starting a serious diet. My goal is to lose 15 pounds in 45 days. I know that might sound absurd, but I know that I can do it. First, I will save money. Second, I am going to Texas and Colorado in February to see some old friends and I want to look good...duh :)
Meredith and I had our annual Tacky Holiday Sweater Party last weekend, and needless to say, no one was disappointed. People actually made the two hour trek down to Chillicothe for the party. I was shocked. The punch was good, the outfits were ridiculous, and the music was perfect. Although there are a few moments that I don't remember perfectly, I had a wonderful time. Friends from high school, college, and from Chillicothe were in attendance. It was nice to have every period of my life represented!
This guy (to remain nameless), who I have been friends with since college and currently lives 20 hours away, came to the party. I am completely head over heels infatuated with the kid; even though my roommate says that he looks like a surfer dude and despite the fact that Pete has pointed out that he constantly flicks his hair. We had a great time the night of the party and then the following night we went to the zoo and looked at the lights. I wish that I would have been feeling better to enjoy it more, but I just enjoyed spending time and just talking with him (the kissing wasn't that bad either ;)). Unfortunately his free time was sparse, he is now in Europe. Yep, Europe. I didn't dig for details on the trip because I am assuming that it is to visit his ex-girlfriend (hopefully not his current girlfriend). I hate this. Hopefully, I am assuming wrong. But girls have a sixth sense and just get that feeling. Anyways, I just hate the fact that I fall for people whom I shouldn't. He has been so sweet, nice, etc. so far that I just know it is going to end not the way that I would want it too!
Basically he has been the one guy friend of mine who has kept in touch with me since college. And I will emphasize the fact that he has kept in touch with me. I wasn't always as receptive as I am now. I used to just see him as a friend... until last year when he kissed me before he left to go back to CO. For me, I don't relish in the fact that he kissed me. Instead, I think about how he has to have done this with all of these other girls and how many other girls does he constantly text, etc. I hate the fact that I am a complete pessimist when it comes to boys. Completely and utterly hate it. And what makes it worse, is that he has always been the one guy who has been there for me through every guy telling me that they weren't good enough, that i didn't deserve them. I just wish that I could trust a guy again. I have learned through the past year to love again, now I just want to trust again.
Back to the fact that he has been the only guy friend to really reach out to me since college to be my friend... I guess, I just keep comparing this in my mind to my sister and Jay. How Jay was the only person to really keep in touch with her when she moved out to Montana and when she came back, he was right there for her. I just wish my guy would move back to Ohio and then we could take off where Chrissie and Jay did... i.e. on the way to something more permanent. Ha ha. Not going to happen. But, I can wish!
And I know that I am just rattling on and on without much of a point thus far. My point is that I like a guy that doesn't live anywhere close to me, I don't trust men of any shape, size or color, I want to find happiness, and I am sad.
That is right, I am sad. I hate being sad and depressed. This guy and I would talk everyday and constantly be texting each other. I know that sounds ridiculous for two twenty-somethings to be constantly texting, but it puts a smile across my face and happy thoughts in my mind. And I know it does the same thing for him, because he told me so! And he left for Europe yesterday. I know that it has only been one day, but I just miss hearing from him and I can't help but wonder who he is traveling with or whom he is visiting. And that of course makes me sick... makes me sick to think that he probably really isn't mine or ever going to be mine.
I don't like to ramble on about guys, but this is the only place that I feel that I can really talk about it. I am scared to tell my family things, or tell them everything in that they have already blamed me for losing John awhile back (which was not my fault at all!). I also can't confide in my roommate really. She doesn't really like him, granted she does not know him at all. But, why make fun of someone that you know your roommate likes when you yourself really don't know him at all? Yeah, I thought so.
So, please just wish me well and if you have any ideas on how I can distract myself these next two weeks... let me know!
I am thinking about having someone screen all future guys for me. Maybe hang a sign outside my door that says "Only serious inquiries permitted".
I really just don't want to be lonely for the rest of my life.
Wednesday, December 5, 2007
Freestyle/Backstroke Workout
Today was the first day that I haven't gotten in the pool for a couple of weeks. I wasn't sure how much I would be able to do as I am still a bit sick and quite out of shape. However, for the 45 minutes that I was in the water, I managed to swim 2300 yards. Go me!
200 EZ Choice Warm Up
4 x 75 Kick, Step Down 1-4
4 x 75 Pull, Step Down 1-4
3 x [3 x 50]
1) 25 free/25 stroke
2) 25 stroke/25 free
3) 50 stroke fast
3 x [4 x 75]
1) 75 free
2) 50 free/25 stroke
3) 25 free/50 stroke
4) 75 stroke
150 EZ Warm Down
I did all the stroke work backstroke as that was my specialty back in the day.
200 EZ Choice Warm Up
4 x 75 Kick, Step Down 1-4
4 x 75 Pull, Step Down 1-4
3 x [3 x 50]
1) 25 free/25 stroke
2) 25 stroke/25 free
3) 50 stroke fast
3 x [4 x 75]
1) 75 free
2) 50 free/25 stroke
3) 25 free/50 stroke
4) 75 stroke
150 EZ Warm Down
I did all the stroke work backstroke as that was my specialty back in the day.
A return...
I'm back!
It has been a couple of weeks since I last made an entry, and I am sorry. Thanksgiving was here, my grandfather had open heart surgery, I came down with strep throat (again), and I took the LSAT. Now that that is all over, a weight has been lifted off my shoulders and I am ready to go on with my life.
Stay tuned for future posts. I plan to focus on swimming workouts for my team and for myself, the pros and cons of being single during the holidays, and the process of applying to law school.
Until then...
It has been a couple of weeks since I last made an entry, and I am sorry. Thanksgiving was here, my grandfather had open heart surgery, I came down with strep throat (again), and I took the LSAT. Now that that is all over, a weight has been lifted off my shoulders and I am ready to go on with my life.
Stay tuned for future posts. I plan to focus on swimming workouts for my team and for myself, the pros and cons of being single during the holidays, and the process of applying to law school.
Until then...
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